Some time back I made a post about what number I was counting as my “start weight”. And since I had started back to Weight Watchers after being gone for a few months that I had to a new start weight. This start weight was lower than the first time I had gone into the WW. Well this is just not working for me. I am discarding 23.5 pounds lost that way. I need to see that those pounds are gone too. It will have me personally dealing with two sets of numbers. I have been working on this for a long time. When I think back to what I was before I see myself at my heaviest weight and gauge from there. If I look at the number that WW has for me I feel like I haven’t done as well I truly have. Though my WW card does state the lower number a few months back my leader acknowledged to the meeting group I go to the higher number so that people would know I have lost more than is showing. It made me feel good that she did that. A lot of this battle is mental. Sometimes we just need that extra boost.
I have been struggling a lot in the last few months. I do normally have some issues in the winter due to getting the winter blues and having trouble finding motivation. So I need every little bit I can get. I have had a couple wake up calls. One being some pain in my knee that started in my sleep. The other being inputting my weight into my e-Tools. I didn’t realize how much I had gained over the holidays. I had been hit and miss on eating, tried doing Simple Start but not being able to stick with it. I need the structure of tracking at the moment. Today is a new day.